I’m afraid

It’s true. I’m caught in the tangle of fear and I’m not sure how to get out of it.

I’m trying to keep hope alive.

One of my favorite tarot readers, Alex Reads Tarot, mentioned in one of her recent videos that Hope is fleeting, and it’s Faith that runs deep, Faith that can last forever if you embrace it.

I always associated Faith with religion, and religious people liked to socially ostracize or persecute my family and I because we were a mix of Pagan and Atheist.

But Faith is more than religion. It’s a belief that somehow things can be okay even when everything in the external world is showing you otherwise. It’s the belief that you can accomplish anything in a society that’s trying to restrict your existence to what it wants from you and wants to take from you.

During Covid, I was infected twice. I survived, as did my family, even though I infected them. But Covid has a 1% mortality percentage. The things going around now are closer to 50%.

And still, I must have Faith, if I am to be or believe anything.